if i were a boy

If i were a boy, i would be all over the world actually.

There would be no constrains, no strings attached, all will be carefree and a good chance to see the world.

There's this exchange program offered, to work in the US, NZ etc. Its a short term of 6-12 months.

Interested parties can check out www.speedwing.org


Program Overview

As an au pair, your main responsibility is to take care of the children of your host family. Your job scope includes, but is not limited to, preparing meals for the kids, sending them to school or activities they participate in, playing with them, teaching and guiding them in their schoolwork if necessary, or driving them to play dates. Au pairs are required to do light house chores but only those that revolve around the children like doing their laundry, making their beds, cleaning up the table after they eat, and cooking for them if necessary.

You may be asked to work the maximum of 45 hours per week but no more than 10 hours per day for 5.5 days. You will get one-and-a-half day off per week and a full weekend off (Friday evening to Monday morning) once a month. You are entitled to 2 weeks paid vacation and an optional 30-day travel period at the end of your program.


Duration of Program

The program is for 12 months. You will have the option of extending your stay in the USA for 6, 9 or 12 months after that.


Isn't it cool? I really wish im a guy so i won't have to care and just leave to work with a couple of my homies. It's good exposure, good experience and once in a lifetime man!

I always have this wish to work where ever i travel, if i ever had the chance.
Say, go to Rome, i run out of cash, just work for a few months, and jet off to another destination again.

Just see the world man. It will be amazing.



Besides, being a guy i can get to dress like one!







freaking hot boys!!

outfits & headgears

THE MORNING SUN!!

Gosh! I'm like up early man! I slept early! I slept at 11+ i think, i msged yan saying i was tired and i went to my bed and zzz.

TODAY IS MY STUDENT'S EXAMS! Some of the lower grades are today. The higher grades are next week. *shudders*

Ok, im up early because i gotta drag myself to school to help out. Exams start at 9am. How great for a late sleeper like me.......


ciao~

Doing a Blair Waldorf

Min's birthday will be held at Dbl O, our homeground this saturday. And the theme will be a Blair Waldorf, from Gossip Girls.

Well, we can't possibly not do any homework without surfing the internet right?
And given my present state of unhappiness now, surfing fashion blogs and the likes, helps but still not able to put me into the lull of a proper sleep.

Lets just get on to the few other pics i've found on B:

































Which B would u do?

hero in my house!

KANAME SEMPAI!!!!!!
U're lying on my bed?!

Lol!
:)

i'm making a spell

Im making spells!

Dizzy spells!
That's what i have been getting into recently.
Hmm.. It doesn't help when my work environment consists of loud piano music in a room where it drives my head spinning even more.

Everything seems heavy, loud and noisy. And it seems like Windows media player's graphic keeps playing and spinning around when im out.




Anyway, matters of the heart is always complicated.
It can be endearing, it can be happy right down to your bones.
But it can tear u apart, kill your appetite and send u to the gates of gloom.


Sigh, i just love conference calls.

xoxo.

an addiction

I am a qualified CANTONESE NOW!!

Hahahhaa, i just learn my first game of Mahjong, the wonders of gambling, the incredible brain power and thinking speed, the nice clacking sounds made by the tiles, the tiles (mine) that looks yummilicious as though they're some Kaya/Pandan Kueh, the tense moment when each person KANG, the exciting moment when u ZHI MO, the exhilarating moment when u HU!

Weeee! I just managed to sum up everything i felt about the game. Haa, hooked man! Was playing with the girls from like evening to 1am? Kinda like it as just playing around, slacking, not moving much, eating, and enjoying time.

Mahjong khakis, anyone? :)

new skin for the new year!

Waves!

I just did up this skin since last night. And i really like those dolls! They're just so pretty! I have couple more pics of them.



Aren't they goregous?




They have guys too! And this guy on the right really reminds me of Edward Cullen.

*DROOLS!*



on a side-note, i found that photoscape is really useful.
It can do fun stuffs like that;



Have a happy weekend.
I'll be busy visiting!

Loves.

in need of 5 senses

Our 5 senses are very important.
Sight, Smell, Taste, Touch and Hearing.

All my senses are missing him..




Ok, i know, very BLAH.


Anyway, it's year 2009!! May all the bads be gone, the good remain, the lovely be remembered and the hatred be forgotten.

Let's state down the new year resolutions again shall we?


1. Save $$$
2. Travel
3. Sleep earlier
4. Take care of my health
5. Practice more piano


Saving money. Everyone needs to save. For rainy days, for any emergency, for any use. Being 23 (NOT YET THOUGH), it would be better for one to really start the stinge and save plan.




Would i be able to not buy unnecessary things?

Where, how and what will i be like in 3 years down the road? Will i still be pinning over a certain lost? Will i have recovered and enjoying a new love and heading a fine life?

The future is always scary to think of.



Travelling while u're still enjoying your youth is always the best. U have the zest in life, the energy to walk around, the interest to explore etc.
Travelling with your mates would be the best man. Anyone up for travels? =)





I've read about articles saying that when a person sleeps late, the body is unable to rest, the metabolism rate decreases, thus im getting FATTER because of possibly, my sleeping habits ?





Recently i have a couple of health problems worth looking over for. My nose is a concern. No, not the bridge or how it looks like. But rather, the nodes within are always swollen and thus im allergic to a whole load of things. It swells till it become really sore and painful. (Thats like within ok, not my nose swelling!)





My thumb is malfunctioning too. As a pianist, that's a worrying matter. And im really worried. Been to chinese sinseh, and few days later, there are some slight improvements, but still painful and swollen.

Sigh. I always have a health problem to worry about.




My parents want me to get my LTCL asap as dad would be retiring in maybe next year. The LTCL standard is equivalent to a final year grad's degree.
And of course the songs standards are high la. What the hell, damn hard can. DAMN! Anyway will practice hard as soon as MR. THUMB is better. =((




*****

Year 2008 was a downright emotional year for me.
I ended my 3 years relationship not because i loved him less, or he cheated on me, but he wasn't part of my life much and he didn't put any effort to be in it at all.
When we broke up, it wasn't because a lack of love, but a lack of attention from him.

Thinking back always, i really wonder is it a wise decision?
Why are we looking at each other like as though we're enemies when in the past, we could be lovers?

I've cried buckets full of tears over this guy. Still do.
I wish him luck for 2009, as well as my friends.

I wish myself, happiness, like i always asked for..

neoprint and girls

Some pictures taken recently to perk anyone up!

I had been eating quite alot lately. With all the steamboats, the pizzas, the pizzas again, the sushi, the alcohol, i really need to lose some weight man!

Gosh!

I didn't really enjoy steamboat day 'cause the food sucks, the place suck and the people that day spoilt my mood.

sigh~





Anyway checked out Timbre on Brenda's birthday! Theme of the day was RETRO. Quite a nice chill out place with really really good pizza, but i dont think much of the live band. Have been to much better ones that really enchants me with the live singing (read: Edwin wins my heart over with his singing)

Shall post his singing online pretty soon.





We went downtown and watch Madagascar then! Fucking funny man the show! hahahha.. had a really good laugh. =) i just love comedies! I mean, why do u pay for a movie that scares you, or some lame ghoul effect, when u can have the best laugh and leave the cinema feeling really happy rather than thinking about some spooky scenes that keeps SPOOKING you?

Of course we couldn't resist taking some pics to past time while waiting for the movie!




Anyway on 7.12.2008, went to attend Steve Aoki's at zouk. That day was crazy man! Luckily Angela and i paid entrance for phuture so we could run to both places.
First the crowd was crazy. Everyone was fucking high and CRAZY! They kept pushing, pushing and more pushing and shoving! Some bitch poured alcohol on me. We fell down and got stamped on!



Mad house! And we were not high at all.. =(
Had a better time at phuture instead 'cause there's space at least.
And when we left at 5am, it was raining cats and dogs.
We had no choice but to RUN in the rain in our heels and get soaked to skin.
Worse there was NO CAB!!

Kinda worst day of the month!

It was insane! People were all queuing and calling for cab, but there were just very few cabs. And we took out our heels to walk barefooted 'cause our feet were too pain and exhausted. We were cold, and OUT in the blistering cold, with the wind constantly blowing. AND NO TRANSPORT HOME!

The time we managed to call a cab and get in was 630am.

What a wonderful morning.


Anyway last week i went crazy and did quite alot of shopping. =) in a way it was to justify my frustrations for not being able to shop in BKK.



So yea.

My collection of stitch!!




Alright im going to pack my things!

looking back on the things i've done~

Everything that a person does, happens for a reason.
Whether it is God's wishes, or fate, or whatever it might be.

Everything right or wrong, white or black, happens for the same reason.
We've all made mistakes.
We've all fallen before.

We've glory moments.
We've stand up from falls.


It is all the making of us, the creation of us.
Life is wonderful, as we grow up, we find out more and more about ourselves.

Isn't it remarkable?
I feel that, from the moment we're born, we're a puzzle itself. That we have to find out, putting pieces and pieces together, TRYING, we're always trying in life. We find pieces of ourselves, and piece us together.

Together, we make ourself the way we want it to look like.
Sometimes, after pieceing us together, we often forgetto check back how we look.
Are we doing the right things, going the right way?
Many things to look out for.

We can't determine your ownself in just 1 night, or in just your school days etc. It evolves as you grow. And every minute that u're adapting/changing, your puzzle changes too.


Life sure is interesting.
It's all about finding yourself. (:

No Festive Mood

For the past years, i've spent christmas, with mr ex. He hates christmas, which dampens my christmas mood.

The most memorable one was where he brought he atop Mount Faber, and we caught the first snow show ever. Since then all, the prices were crazy. We got it at a steal at $9 but i paid $30+ for a set of special photos though.

And i would always want to go round taking pics of the Christmas trees in town.
This year, i suddenly just lost it. I don't even feel like celebrating Christmas.
It isn't about him, i just lost the festive mood..

Thinking back, i always wonder, where is this person now? Why isn't he by my side anymore?

Then i look ahead, and i see that the future does not hold anything for both of us. If we're meant to be, we will be.
Im looking at things i'll be doing.
I look a few years from now, i would want my life to be better than now.
I would want to be happier. More matured, more grown, more nurtured.

I'm excited to grow old suddenly!
Are you?
=)


Hope to find my lost Xmas mood soon!

family ties

As you may know, i was unable to make it to Bangkok due to the sickening !@*U*&%#()@#_(! riots going on in its airport and f-up country.

My parents have been really supportive in many ways, financially and physically. They were there for me, respecting any decision i made and offering their sympathy when i couldn't go.

Of course my mood was low to the max, seriously didn't want to contact anyone or anything. Of course there were plans and ideas to go KL instead or even a day tour to Batam.

But u know, shit always happens all the same time.

What became the most anticipated week, became the most fucked up week.
Haa!


Anyway i continue my leave, and on Sunday, i spent quality time with my family. Which is not a very often thing. We went to return prayers, lunch at Modesto @ Vivo City (alas i didn't get to shop =.=) and visit my grandpa in Alexandra Hospital.

It was a simple, but yet everytime (even though Mum NAGS alot), i feel happy and thankful for the short day affair.



Today, i went to pick up my SKII products from my cousin's place, right opposite East Coast's MAC. It was a pleasant HOT day to start out. Love the sun though. I wished i could just cross the underpass over and sun tan!!

Spent my whole morning there playing with Aiden Boy! Darn cute, with lots of attitute kicked in! =P

I finally went down to Mrs Tay's and that's all.

Im a happy girl.




I don't need events or functions, or happening stuffs to make me happy.
Am happy with just simple affairs =))


Love ya.

picking up debris of myself

There's certain people in your life that does affect you,
be it their action, or sometimes even just their presence.

I would catergorise these people as important people in your life.
If not, little things that they do, it wouldn't even have any impact on you.

I do admit just by seeing him the other day was a nuisance impact. By no matter what, it did stir my feelings; (read: pissed feelings)

I do not feel love.
I do not feel sad or emo.
I feel irritated, and i wish he would just vanish.

Im having a ball of time with my friends, my loved ones.
Don't come appearing in front of me, i'll slap you.

Im on the road, moving on.
When i have already deleted your messages from my phone, it means im already over you.
The feelings are no longer there, sadly to say, the memories will always be pulling me back.
Im a strong girl, like he always says.
And i'll be stronger now.


Watch me shine.
I'll glow.
I'm off to bangkok, and when im back, i'll rock your ass!


with much loves,
sm

deep thinking

Sometimes, in time to time, i do a personality check.
I do wonder, am i a poser? Who likes to brag bout my daily happenings and stuffs?
Or am i just myself?

Its good to keep track of yourself once in awhile.
I'm glad to say, no matter what, i've been true to myself.
And im glad my friends accept me and my nature no matter how i am.

I'm glad i have you all by my side, growing and breaking out of our shells into the society.
New phases in life and stages we go through.
No matter what we become, you have me, and i have you.

Another Cut

I just had my 3rd short hair cut.
Hmm, kinda love it, kinda love my long hair.

Argh! Contradicting, im full of shit.

first, for Chinese New Year this year 2008,



my very first short cut!


hahaha, then just before my birthday i had a disaster cut but i managed to rock it by pinning it up.




and just only, before i go for my getaway, i need some good hair ma!! it was getting seriously out of shape and stuff already. So, my 3rd short cut!!




Please pursuade me to leave my hair long the next time when i feel like cutting! i really miss my long hair! boooooo~

loving short at the moment though :p

a anime/flower/manga freak!~

Recently, i've been spending my nights and free time at home!
What a good girl i've been!
However, I sleep at hours like 5+am etc all due to watching and reading anime online.

Suddenly, i'm very fascinated with flowery prints. Leading to anime + manga, leading to Japanese.

I grew up with block colours and suddenly (before anime fetish) i was turning to flower prints.

I just couldn't resist the lust for flower power. Or even lace. Hmm..... Talk about growing up huh.
Just last year, i thought that lace was gross and flower was auntie.

Now.


Which resulted in the items below:



Adidas Honey Slip On; $79




Recent flower dresses




My 2009 Organiser, Trinket Box for current jewellery



Lusting for more flowers!





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Vampire Knight.

A Japanese anime/manga by Matsuri Hino about a vampire king, a human who turned vampire, and a human who's vampire powers were put to sleep.
Ok, basically a boy, a boy and a girl, consectively.

Ok, 2 very handsome boys.








ta-dah!

the story has its mysterious selling point, its romance, cartoon looks really yummy-drawn!

Plot from Wiki:

Yuki Cross's earliest memory was when she was attacked by 1 vampire and was saved by another, Kaname Kuran. Yuki is adopted as the daughter of the headmaster of Cross Academy and has grown up and become a prefect for the school with one main purpose:

TO PROTECT THE HUMAN DAY CLASS AND THE VAMPIRE NIGHT CLASS FROM EACH OTHER.

+ point: The Day class doesn't know that the night class are actually Vampires! And they're all so droolable!!

Her fellow guardian, Zero Kiryu, a childhood companion whose parents were killed by a pureblood vampire, is now determined to kill them all and refuses to trust them. Through a cruel twist of fate,Zero becomes a vampire himself, (sobs) having been bitten by a pure-blood vampire four years before.














YES. THAT EXPLAINS MY CURRENT BLOG SKIN.
I cut out the characters from the above 2 pics and put them together for my header. =D

and i drew a rose using Illustrator for my side columns.

HAAA!

I AM A VK FAN!

Of course im already starting my collection of VK things. HAHAHAHHAA! Was tempted to even role-play. Hmm... Expensive hobby though.

Anyway, am still chasing the series.



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Next,

Rosario :+: Vampire

From Wiki:

Tsukune Aono got into a school which turns out to be a secret school for supernatural monsters (yōkai), who are disguised as humans. The first student he meets is the beautiful Moka Akashiya, who is a vampire.

Tsukune and Moka make new friends and enemies as their stay at Yōkai Academy progresses. Together, they fight through many monsters with evil intentions etc etc.

Ok i edited it. Haa, the wiki info was way too long man.

No pics as i just enjoy reading/watching it. Lazy to save. More into VK!~ hahaha



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Anyway, a few tuesdays ago, i went for my facial and i went Chinese Garden to snap snap.

Still learning, trying out Big Baby. Hmm.....


















Love the purple flowers against the green..



Alright! Have a Happy Halloween this friday peeps! I wanna be a vampire!
Vk-ing!~



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