Accessories Overload!

I'm not an accessories girl.

I was not one who will spend or even wear much accessories.

But during the recent year, i've been obssessed with rings.

It went on to bracelets, and long dangling earrings.



My friend, Anna just posted a harmless tag on Facebook asking if anyone's interested to tag onto the orders from Asos.



Out of curosity (which always kills, in this case, my wallet), i went to take a look at Asos website.



Clicked clothes. Nah.

Clicked shoes. Nah.

Clicked accessories. Whoaaaaaaaaa..



Damnit, the accessories are NICE! And i can't seem to find these in Singapore.






I topped the list up with




Total damage: S$93.85

Ok, thing is, they look cheap in pound. Like 5pounds, 7 pounds for the bag ok! It's like less than $20!!

Considered good buy? No?

Gaaaa, but im loving them!

Not to mentioned the recent bracelet buy from Topshop. Opps!

Horror Struck!

Armed with a torchlight and wet cloth,
I unveiled a nest of small ants/termites.

Totally flabbergusted, feeling itchy all over,
These crawlies kept me up all night.

In and out they crawled,
Out of magazines, wires and wood.

A pail of water i grabbed,
and everything infested, i threw.

My maid was woken up because of this,
sleep was spoilt, she was not pleased.

Up till now, itchy is all i feel.
What a nightmare i must deal!

As we grow, we mature.

Time really flies, doesn't it?
Just not too long ago, it was just the beginning of 2010.
And now, today? It's inching towards mid March already.


Time flies.
I feel that at times, i should have been more matured, yet i wasn't.
Is it probably due to time passing by so fast that i have not been able to grow with my age?

And as we grow, friends around you get attached, some even getting hitched.
And you're just single, just out of a 4 year long relationship.


Times when you feel lonely, you really want someone to be there.
But yet, it's a hassle to speak, to voice out.
It's a hassle to repeat things that you might have already told them but just want to repeat it out loud again..


There isn't really anyone there for you afterall, why so? Because they're all leading their happy lives.
Please don't get me wrong, dear friends. I'm extremely happy and glad and in no point sour or bitter about being alone.

I can deal with being alone. In fact, i think i rather LIKE being alone.


Hassle-free.
You know what your heart needs to know, thats all.

I lost the old me, that has to rant out verbally.
Instead, i take everything in stride, in silent.

There are times i wanna call up my sweet gfs to talk, but yet.. I'm actually too lazy to do that.

Maybe my past relationship trained me to be such a GUY.
Fuss-free, can't be bothered, lazy, independent.


I reminise myself being such a wuss last time.
Now? I can deal with any shit man..

I'm definitely a stronger, independent woman.

Happy Belated Woman's Day.

Cheers to every girl, lady and woman.

Love,

Sm

LOL!

After a day's of work,
a long long night of practicing my piano,
with nothing to look forward to,
my dear friend actually made me LOL at 230++am.
Hahahahahaha!!

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killing daisies says:

if A is short, he would be ugly

killing daisies says:

if B is short, he would be uglier

I say:

yea i think so too!!!!

*****

We were comparing how cute singaporen guys tend to be smaller size, and short.
And taller guys well, they tend not to have the cutey face. (i mean aside from cute angmos la)
AGREE RIGHT??

So we took 2 tall guys and imagined them being short.
Thus, that's how the above conversation came about.

LOL!

Till it comes your way.

Looking for love is like looking for a pair of shoes/sandals.



Why do i say so?

Because i was previously anxiously looking for a pair of decent, nice stylish pair of sandals.

To serve me comfortably, to take care of my feet and sole, and to undying-ly serve me till death parts.

But i couldn't find the RIGHT exact one for my shoe size.


It was either,

• Too bling.
• Too painful.
• Too small.
• Too slippery.
• Not stylish enough.
• Not unique enough.
• Too common.

I kept looking high and low for one, but tsk tsk tsk, i just couldn't meet the RIGHT pair of sandals.

So just over the weekends, i was at Cineleisure. And i harmlessly wandered my way into Substance with no intention to get anything because usually I'll just go in and come out empty-handed. (Ok, fine, most of the occasions I'll come out empty-handed)

I didn't even spotted this pair of sandals immediately.
I was looking at all the other fine looking pair of shoes with a very generous 50% discount off.



Again, the same stuffs happened.
No size.
Too tight.
Yada yada.
Attractive, nice looking, but it hurts me.


And then i spotted it!
The pair that fitted perfectly!
With black soft backing, and a tinge of animal print at the front, it was unique, comfortable and the RIGHT size!

It was just $16+.

And there, i found my current pair of sandals when i least expected it. :)


I'm hoping this happens to my love life too.

Toughening Up

Besides the list of Resolutions or more likely, a "To-Do List" listed below,
i feel that there's a character reflection too.

I feel that I've lost myself.
I feel that I'm too nice for my own good.
I feel that i should arm myself up with this ice barrier around me.
I feel that i should guard myself well.
I feel that i should be a stricter teacher.
I feel that i should be firmer to saying no to people.
I feel that i should speak my mind and tell people off more.
I feel that it doesn't pay to be nice.

For 2010, it'll be a Leaner, Meaner, Me.
I'll toughen up.
I'll wear masks.
I'll come back fiercer, and stronger.

Watch me shine.

2010 Resolutions

1. Earn more money
2. Save more money
3. Have more rest and taking care of my health
4. Spend more time with my family
5. Contribute more to my family
6. Lose weight
7. Practice piano for a longer time. To be done daily. Or at least try.
8. To visit the Singapore Gun Club.
9. To travel far.
10. To shoot more with the Dslr.
    
11. CLEAR OUT MY DAMN ROOM!

That's quite a hefty. But oh well, i have the whole 2010 to finish up this list!

And the bottom-line of every resolution is...

To be happy. :)

Belated Bye to 2009!

2009 has been a year of regret.
My biggest regret was to get back with Mr Ex.
We actually had a clean break up in 2008.

Goodness knows why we strayed back together, only to confirm we're done for.



2009 has been a year i really tried to save.
I did cut down on my spendings.
I'm not such a reckless shopaholic anymore.
I just merely (most of the times) dig sale items more.
And indeed, i did managed to save a small amount.

It's a good start at least.



2009 has been a year i gained the most weight.
I'm at my FATTEST now.
Due to my nose allergy, i have to take this medication daily, and alas, it made me gain up to 6 over kgs.

It was truly devastating and i felt so ugly, broken, ill-health, and not to mention fat.
I cried for a few days knowing that i was tired out easily was due to the medication too.



2009 was a year i went in and out of hospital many many times.
It was mainly due to my nose checkups. And the annual dental visit.
Lately it was due to my lasik surgery. Not that im complaining about it though. :)
My dearest mom was generous enough to pay for the whole package.
Not to mention the taxi trips from home to Mt. Alvernia, and then back home again.



2009 i went for my first trip with my dearest lesbo!
We again failed to go Bangkok together due to their local political affairs but instead we changed our flights to HK instead!
It was a shopping trip with VERY LITTLE REST!
Hahahaha. I splurged like a mad woman the last few days.
Wished i bought alot more though.

Definitely looking forward to more trips!



2009, i started my piano lessons with this concert pianist.
He's really good. Every class with him is like a Masterclass.
Every lesson i learn alot from him.
In a way he makes me want to practice more. (Which i have not during the past 2 weeks)
So far i like my pieces. Especially the Brahms.

Career wise, i'm blessed with a job i love.
All i need to do is to pay 'myself' more.



2009 was a year i partied ALOT.
Like weekly since October? LOL!
It was my first time to Butter and since then, it's always been Butter!


So long 2009!
I can only hope for a happier 2010!

2009 Xmas Eve & Xmas; A Very Happy Affair :)

Xmas eve we count down at Butter Fact itself.
We didn't really even know it was 12 midnight already so it wasn't really an exact countdown.

Anyway we had the table reserved by Anna, and yay, no damn queue again.
FYI, the queue was right up to the river and even longer..
It was madness.

Thank goodness we had a reserved table so we got in after reaching shortly.

Here's the Ladies VS Guys:




And a very kissy night it was!




We got high and we jumbled everyone's bf/gfs



Can you tell who is with who? :)





Sweetie got wasted though, but luckily she had Andre to send her home.
Poor Andre. But he was really nice, taking care of her and all.
A gentleman indeed. :)

Clau Bunny and i kept hopping around, alas, Yujun was always there to catch us back!
No fun!!

Partying is a part of me because i really like dancing it off. I just like moving and grooving to the music.

I don't hook up guys or get guys etc etc.

Anyway there was a point we went up to pole dance for a while. But Anna was the natural.
*salute*


We survived (my high heels for my case) till 4+am and we headed out to have some food.
Spize sucks big time though at River Valley.

Still love my simpang best!! Lagi shiok, so near me! Woo HOo~



Just when i was on my cosy bed, the bird kept calling out till i could hardly have a decent good sleep. That was like freaking 7amish!!

DAMN THAT BIRD!



Which few hours later in the day, i woke up, do up all the cards and presents, packed bags and prepared for our picnic at Marina Barrage!


It was a casual day, first time they would see me shorts i guess.


We had fun with a funny lame monk.


HAHAHHAHA!

He brought christmas crackers which didn't crack, technically. However they did open up to small lil' gifts like the hat he was wearing..


Bryan cooked delicious pasta! Oh man~ Must learn from him one day! hahaha!

Clau and Jed brought salad and drinks i think. Potato salad from Gloria Jeans was awesome! Shall buy that 1 day and eat it myself.

Sweetie made sandwiches which we all teased her with. But nevertheless, it was a good effort! Good try sweetie!!

I brought Kino jellies which my Mom made, because i can't due to my partying the night before.
Ahem!


Anyway, it was such a relaxing day! We ate, we took poloroids. We admired the breeze, the sky, the view and the many many kites.

B.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l.




We went for Sherlock Holmes which i actually enjoyed, (besides the very very hot Robert Downey Jr.) more due to the witty dialogues.

I just have the soft spot for that.

And did i mention how hot is Sherlocks Holmes?
I mean from young, i've always imagined him as a geek.
Never would i imagine how very sexy (his brain) is.


After the HOT movie, we went to Shenton Way's Party world and sang our hearts out till 4 freaking am.


I went home really happy. *grins*




I love my friends! And yes you you you and you, all my other friends too!

I hope all had a blessed and Merry Christmas.



There's a dinner booked for us on the eve.

Looking forward to my new year celebrations. :)

The Closure; 我不配

I was just listening to this song when suddenly the lyrics hit me. Hard.

In the chorus it said,

" 这感觉已经不对, 我努力在挽回.
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给, 你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微.
在妥协是我忽略, 你不过要人陪. "

I feel sad that when 2 people get together, there's supposed to be compromising, understanding, communication and interaction.

I feel sad that no matter how many times i told him before there's no interaction nor communication, it's hard to continue, he still doesn't do anything.

I feel sad that he didn't try harder.

After 4 years with him, there's definitely memories he left behind.


How We Knew Each Other:
We knew each other as poly friends. We were buddies in fact.
We used to cab to school together, or take bus. But we didn't hang out after school as i always return home. (I used to be such a nerd!)

Slowly as we went to year 2, he saw me going through my 2nd break up. He kept saying things like i was the most special girl he ever saw. I felt so unique in his eyes. I felt so rare to him.


Where's this feeling now?


He got his car. My mum used to gave him "pocket money" because he sends me to school as friends. I always felt happy waiting for him to pick me up even just as friends.




We could tease each other, poke fun at each other. It really made school much easier to pass.



The Get-Together:
Before we even got together, he wanted to give up on me.
He thought i was still not over my past relationship.
Before we even got together, we quarreled.

In a way, that was how we got together. He brought me to East Coast Park and he held my hand.
He said he would never ever make me cry. He said he would hold my hand and walk down this path together. He said i was the only who he could really talk freely, openly and be himself without wearing any masks.

I guess, he took me for granted too many times.





There were many good times. He took me to the airport for meals. To the zoo. To marina bay, the old steamboat areas. We would fly kites there. We would just lie on the grass and just admire the sunset.

He surprised me on my 1st birthday together.
He actually took a bus carrying a huge-ass Tasmania Devil toy. And surprised me at my doorstep the moment it struck 12mn.

He took a bus to show his sincerity by not driving.




We kept our relationship a secret in school. To keep everyone guessing.
Every week we would go for movies.
He's the only one i watched so many freaking movies with before.





When he was working at Cabana at East Coast, i would wait alone at a bench, use his laptop, do my drawings, or read my book from evening till night just to wait for him to knock off.

We always check out new places together. Like Marina Square when it just opened.
It has pretty lights from the 2nd storey.




He dislike taking photos with me, but through the years, he tried to change for me.





His Army Life:
I would have stayed with him from the day he booked into camp till he completed his NS life but alas, he made me broke up with him months before his ORD.
He didn't meet me or called for a week, even though he was having his block leave at home.



Things strained between us, i felt like he just wanted to be with his NS friends, friends, and everyone else except me.

It was a major broke up, but we ended back together again.





How It Finally Ended Now:
I guess as i grew up, he did too, but we just had different opinions and way of seeing things.
Again, it's the priorities issues.
He's not a cheater.
He's not a player.
BUT, he's not a lover.

He's truly a good guy, good looks and potential for this great guy.





But one day i just felt this strong feeling so strongly.
He can never take care of me.

He can take care of himself, his family, his friends.
But he can never take care of me.

I can't even find him. Haa!


I know it's not easy to find someone whom u can get along with for years, or maybe for life.
It's not easy to find someone that can accommodate you or to accept who you are.

But still, i chose to gave him up.
Because, he can never take care of me.

I felt like i received God's Grace, an intuition told me that next time when i really need him, he's always never there for me.




He definitely taught me alot of things.
I feel sad, i feel that maybe if he had tried harder, we could have work out.

But im glad, that it's over already now.

I'm done with all the crying, the heartbreaks, the waiting party, the losing end and the weekly quarrels.

I sincerely wish him all the best in life, and i hope he'll find a better one than me.



I'm really glad it's finally a closure chapter of my life.
:)

May the memories burn.

THAT KADE SPADE RING

I really loved it at first sight! Oh my goodness!~



Saw it featured in Urban just last friday. I went down immediately to Taka's Kate Spade to get it.
Alas, it has been OOS since a month ago!

How sad!

I thought it was value for money; $150.
Kinda reasonable for something from Kate Spade.


So the desperate-me went online to search and i found it selling on Nordstrom.

The ring is selling at only S$93!

I filled up my particulars and was about to pay when i saw the postage.

Purchase: $93
Postage: $90
Fees: $6

Total: $195++

.........

Out of my budget. :(

Or should i just get it???

I'm really fat :(

LUSTING!

I'm lusting for a few things right now.

And im really a lustful person. *slurps*
Haven't really checked the pricing in Sg though.




Aww, these are soooooooooooo evil! But i really like the Elvis Pendant from Swarvoski!



My student has it and i really loved it since then! Lucky ass!
Sigh.








Think i like this "happy" necklace too. At least, it will remind me to be happy. =))
Can't wait to check out these stuffs at Ion!!

Loves*

Motivated to lose weight!

All females on earth have a conscious side.
They all want to be slimmer, prettier, better, richer for some reasons.

I guess it's the personal ego.

Everyone wants to look good, who wants to look bad?

Having piled on much weight this year, i really wish i can get rid of all the excess fats + meat.
In fact all i wish now is to return to my former weight.




I newly discovered this girl's blog, and i think she's really awesome.
I wish i have her lanky frame and tan.



Her dress sense rocks!

Anyway im seriously looking for a pair of booties.. Can't seem to find the right one BESIDES the Fred Perry though. *sulks*

We can't have enough of shoes.
I'm certainly wishing i have a shoe/bag compartment like Mariah Carey's.



AWESOME RIGHT?!?!?!

Choice of song and Randoms.

Currently im doing,

1. Boring Haydn: Sonata in C major, Hob.XVI/50
2. Brahms Rhapsodies op. 79 (doing 2nd rhapsody first before starting the 1st one)
   

I'm asked to choose Ravel or Piazzolla but they're both boring too! :(

I quite like Dohnányi as well as Liszt.

Oh man! I hate choosing. And i always choose the nicer sounding ones. I hate playing ugly songs.....


*****

Anyway i splurged on myself and i bought my most expensive thing for myself ever!


TA-DAHHH!!!



Love it to the max except for the sickening batt life.
Sucks to the core. *DIE BATTERY!*


Anyway much thanks to my bro's recommendation for phone covers, my phone is a spanking chio pink!



Ok it's more of a fruitier shade of pink.



Loving it to the max though!


People interested in getting good & cheap iphone accessories may like to browse Evomobile.
They have many awesome covers and it's really much cheaper than the ones outside.
I bought a few just to change around depending on my mood!

Was browsing through pictures of iphone just now and i came across this:



Cupcakes made to look like the iphone menu! hahahhaa awesomely cute!


*****


I'm currently doing fine. Not well, but just fine..
I don't want to think about anything yet.

Just want to be alone by myself..

And i like that! :D
Everyone should have more ME-TIME.

Well, you'll feel more loved, by yourself.
You'll feel recharged.
You'll feel Incharged.
I feel bliss and calmness..

The world is too noisy. Too buzzing.
Sometimes i really just love time alone.



:)

我真的受伤了

the night when siu mei breaks into a million pieces again..
it wasn't easy becoming stronger.

It is said when one becomes stronger, the harder it is for them to hurt again.

It isn't true.





It hurts just as bad everytime. Again.

Loving Ion

Ion is my new playground now!



Love my new cap from Bershka Mens'. Couldn't care less about the gender so long it fits me. :)

Recently fell in love with a Fred Perry, Japan boots too! Exactly what i've been looking for but it's almost $400!



Ain't it a beauty!!









Been shopping during the Mad September periods. I worked late and when shops are still open, i'll just rush in to buy something to soothe my nerves. Of course i'll just get good buys.
Nothing works better than good buys.







Received quite a number of presents from the kids. Lovely.
That explains a hole in my pocket now as i have to buy back presents for them in Oct.


:(





My lovely 2010 new schedule book! Really keeps my thoughts and schedule neatly piled up!


Can't wait for a new year to come!


Good night ppl! Getting up for the gym tomorrow! Oh God!