Passion for Heels

ever since i've started working, i started indulging myself into the fashion world, i developed a like for weird things, and i started noticing things that is out of the norm etc.

many thanks to my ex colleague, sheau yun, she's really gothic and has her own style of dressing, which really helped created what a shopaholic i am now.

=))

haha! well, i really like killer heels and shoes etc.
i mean, it really brings out & brighten up the outfit and boost your confidence.





it just adds some oomph feeling in your dressing.


One of my fave picture. Dont you think that everything is very nicely captured? love her dress and the hue of the shoe.


this tourist really rock man. she made the back-pack look so cool and not nerdy!!!

it is always said that high heels are made for just picture taking, not for walking.

nevertheless, i think its really goregous! =)

my all-time fave model: agyness
i find that she's really goregous, she has this feminine yet boyish look. and she simply could carry off almost anything!

see for yourselves :)




every girl should HAVE a pair of boots



a pair of patent wedges



LBD (little black dress) and patent heels



i want a polka dot dress badly!!!!



something STRIPES



sneakers?



an asian kimono dress



another perfect LBD



something breezy



a printed classic dress



bustier and cute ribbon shoes



WHITE TRENCH COAT



something PVC

lol.



a full skirt dress



a BRIGHT RED Va-va vooooommmm dress


and well, the list goes on la..


well, i have to really proclaim my love for shoes.. or heels? im seldom caught wearing one actually, but really, i LUST for them man!

look at these power heels!


DROOLSSSSSSsss


oh, in the recent events of the Olympics, well Lucy Liu did several fashion shots related to the games. And i think its really cool.

Dresses are all lovely man..




















Now, the 2 following pictures are from Charles & Keith.
And i think they look stylish rather than cheapo..
thing is, they are always not comfortable enough!!
eyeing a wedge from C & K though =P













anyway my LUST list continues man!


white bow is so sweeett



following are from Nine West's webpage.


this is my baby =)))
















To end off, take a look at this REALLY KILLER HEEL.

i think its just for sale. its really insane man..








crazy heels.

seeing you again..

he was supposed to pass something to me..
seeing him today made me crazy..

it really upset me..
i cried on my way home in the bus.. while msging jas, mindy..

dear, i miss you =(

i miss meeting you.
i miss talking to you..
i miss telling you everything..
i miss spending weekends with you
i miss seeing fireworks with you though u don't like it..
i miss holding your hand.
i miss your hugs, your kisses..
i miss your smell.
i miss everything of you..

i hate being strong..
i hate forcing myself to be happy again..
i hate wearing masks all day long.
i hate myself, blocking away my unhappiness when im actually hurting.
i hate the fact that after each time im sad, i have to force myself to be okay again.
i hate knowing that im alone..

i know i have friends, good close ones for me to lean on, to support me for LIFE, forever, and love me the way i am..

but somehow, this gap, the emptyness can never replaced by good friends.
he took a whole load of happiness out of me..
he took alot of frustrations and unhappiness too..

how can i ever have another one that i trust so deeply, that i share so throughly, that i love whole-heartedly ever again?

u're my soul-mate.. the one who knows all about me. literally everything..
i value and i treasure this.



.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.




i went crazy and i bought 2 killer high heels from Nine West. At sale price of course. Damage was well $90 for the black one; $82.5 for the beige one.




my humble collection..



the more ex ones....



normal wears.

when you msged me on the 5th..

it meant something to me.
i didn't forget, dear...
i remember it used to be special..
a day when you would wish me happy anniversary usually after i ask u what day it is..

today, you messaged me,
asked if i missed you.
how do you want me to reply to that?
of course i missed you.
i missed you much.
i want you much.
do you know how hard it is to want to just go back and wish everything is just fine?

today you messaged me..
you finally messaged me..
maybe if you messaged me on my birthday, it would have been different..

i miss you.
but i cannot want you..

people say im strong.. i could pull away from you.
i tell people im healing, that im alright.. that im numb already..
yet when im really alone, i cry at every memory i have with you..

we walked so far down together.
we fought over almost everything we could have fought about..

it's a pity..
such a pity..



each and every time i read this, it just tears me apart..
can you feel his promise..?

am i doing what's right?

I Miss Us
by juuuulia16





I miss the way we used to love
The way we talked
The way we hugged
The way we looked into each others eyes
And say I love you until the day I die.
You were my everything
That special one
I was sure of that
Like nothing else.
Picturing the future
You always in it.
I thought we would last forever,
Just like we said.
But I guess we were wrong
Because now it’s over
For so long.
I will love you
Until the day I die.
You will always be perfect in my eye.


-----


Those Tears On My Pillow
by Hope





Pretending that I feel fine
A smile covers despair
Sadness is easily hidden
No one would be aware

I go off into a quiet place
When I am feeling low
There I shall cry for hours
No one would ever know

Its easy masking sorrow
If I keep it out of sight
Weeping tears in silence
As I hug my pillow tight

Only my pillow will know
Tears I cried over you
Heartache is never heard
When hidden from view

Those tears on my pillow
Shall be shed silently
Yearning goes unnoticed
Its hurt you cannot see

Tarot Cards

Tarot Card Reading
that was sent to me from astrology.com
free, for my birthday



(Upright) This year you may prove a true and faithful friend, or demonstrate the capacity to love unconditionally. You may become one of the lucky one's who are fortunate to find their true soul mate, provided you don't give into temptation for instant gratification or settle for less than what you deserve. Develop compassion, and learn to put the needs or happiness of someone you care for ahead of your own. A desire for long term connection, love, and fulfillment will enable you to recognize or cultivate your hearts desire, while appreciating consequence, the art of compromise, and the importance of trust. This year may be all about learning to use good judgment.


(Reversed) This year could bring hurt, abuse, or being used or let down by love, and this could affect your judgment, identity, sexuality, commitment, or self-esteem. Stubborn pride, embarrassment, or control issues could keep you from seeking support or coming to an understanding, while lust, insecurity, or indifference could cause you to be indiscriminant in choosing your companions. A misguided belief that you can change someone into your soul mate could show a glaring disparity between what you think you desire, what you deserve, and how you may be settling. Something will be missing this year, but until you are true and faithful to yourself, no one else can be. Work on issues of self-trust, compromise, or commitment, and learn from past mistakes.



somehow, i feel that i could relate to it. This year can bring hurt, abuse? haha, i think of andy.
lol! oh gosh!

sigh


anyway, here's the rest about my life, which describes my character and i think its really true.. =)





(Upright) You are a person of strong conviction, persuasion, determination, and great courage, and you may thrive on, or be confronted with an inordinate amount of challenges or tests of character. You've been there and done that, and you understand that setbacks, suffering, or loss can either make you or break you, and you aren't going to let anything hold you down or cause you to give up. Having more responsibility, dignity, willpower, or obligations than many, you are an example of inspiration or perseverance, and you may have little tolerance for those who don't take responsibility for their lives, blame bad luck, make excuses, or have a victim mentality. Remember that compassion, especially when you think you're the only one going through difficulties, will be the greatest show of strength.


(Reversed) Jealousy, bad luck, shame, blame, insecurity, or a victim mentality could reflect an inability to accept responsibility for your own choices or decisions. When things don't go your way, you may resort to threats, violence, retaliation, revenge, or strong-armed tactics of manipulation in order to get your point across or get even. Being too controlling, getting in other people's faces, talking over others, or going "off" on them, only pushes them away or demonstrates a lack of self-control or willpower. Playing to the crowd not only turns the situation into a circus, but can cause others to question your self-respect. It only takes one act of true courage to inspire transformation of character.




Basically im just enjoying my life at the moment. Im out with whoever i want.
Darren says clubbing in 2 weeks time. we shall see.. haha.
Im not looking for anything, im not desperate for anyone.
I have a great bunch of friends all around me; mindy, jas, celeste, julia, sheau yun in melbourne, angela, eve, janice, liza, rachel etc etc etc

Today will be my 4th Day of Celebration! lol
with my beloved secondary sch friends!

Thurs 24th: Shokudu, Room108 with Starhub mates
Fri 25th (actual): Obar, with 8 friends; min,jas,ahlau,tony,dom,eve,jan,jan's bf
Sat 26th: Dinner at Crystal Jade Ginseng Chicken with Benji, Museum with Angela
Sun 27th: Dinner at Magic Wok Novena with lala,jas,cel,nur,mardiyah, to be continued
.
.
.


=))
i love everyone MUACKS!

when i realized that u're not there to spend my birthday with me anymore...

15 Jun 2008 03:27
I always do . . Girl gimme time to change k i promise before ur birthday u will find happiness k night night



.
.
.


i missed you.
my heart ached when i deleted some of your msgs away..
whenever i pass by your house, i can't help wishing i could see you again.
wishing you would hug me again.

u're a wonderful guy. there are many things you would not do for your gf. but still, it touched me sincerely to know that u loved me sincerely, as who i am, and accepted me as how i am..

i will never ever forget when u fell for me, it was because of me.. and not because of my appearance.. i'm very thankful for that.

i wish i can accept the way you love me. but i can't..
i do love you the way you are, no matter what difficulties you have,
no matter how many times u sleep past our weekends, no matter how u always converse with other girls, yet saying that u're true to me.

i do appreciate the times u sent me back, the nights u stayed up to talk to me, and the many times u gave in to me countlessly in our fights..

i wish i can just accept the fact that u leave me alone during weekdays and just meet me only on the weekends.
i wish i can just bear with the loneliness during weekdays and just be happy with the short hours u meet me on the weekends.
i wish i can put aside my unhappiness and just be thankful that the only time u converse with me is during the weekends..

but i can't.

because i feel that u're a total stranger already, after months and months of ignoring me..

you say that im crazy to demand you to talk to me..
i feel that communication is the basic thing.

what hurts the most is, even when u were on off the whole week, you didn't even called once..

not once.

u always said it's due to army, oily hands, busy with activites, tired with sleep..
didn't u realized that to keep a person, you would need constant communication?


how does a relationship work when u're with the person yet you don't contact the person?


you always say that im asking for too much.
am i?



u've never ever understood my point.
if only you did...

night at the musuem

was hella fun!

i wish there were more things to play! haha.. it's an unforgettable experience.
let me bring u on my trip, though i will bore u with pics of MYSELF. 'cause my friend only send me MY pics.. -.- haha!







we arrived near 12 and the show started already! Program is called "The Dancing Sky", with acrobat ladies in flowy dresses dancing in mid-air hanging from HUMONGOUS floating spheres that looks like hot air balloon. The spheres appear 1 in a victorian styled picture of a sun, the other, of a surreal moon.

it was LOVELY.





pics from my lousy phone =((


anyway we went to the museum and before we entered, we took pics against the beautiful building =)









and ta-dah!!

the moment we entered it shows,



wow! im not being narrow minded or un-arty, but well, i know its a famous structure but yea.. haha..

hmm





we went in somemore..







there were several high quality photographs taken and displayed. really good works. admire their masterpieces..



then i saw a door and we posed.. haha


we saw everyone climbing up this stairway and we followed suit, and we came to the roof!!



we went down again, saw this beautiful door, but it leads to a carpark -.-

haha, too artsy-farty?

anyway, my favourite pic =D




it was mainly on Singapore's history, so they featured spices and herbs, food, etc.




on the 2nd level, view of da naked man




angela arranged the boxes, to take pictures..
haha!






a spiral staircase that, leads to no where!




finally, it was 1.30am, and we left.






it was real fun and i would love to go again! =)

People interested, the National Museuem will be opened till 2am this coming 25th July (FRI) and 26th July (SAT). You can check it out! =)

LUST list

I DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT!!!!! serious k. 'cause da lady here is very realistic. i can't come up with what i want even.

shit*
good for u all la!


haha, anyway...........

1. bags. i want pretty stylish bags, i need big HARDY bags. bags that can last can withstand my rough use. but please, im not looking at crumpler. hahaha!

2. wallet. i don't mind a branded wallet; what brand what kind etc, i have no idea! haa i don't like Guess though.

3. Ferragamo parfums =)) they smell really lovely. i have a sample of shine. though i like charm, but i think its a tad too sweet.

*****

actually, i like surprises or seriously, just catching up with friends is good enough for me already.. its the thought of meeting up to gather for your birthday that makes it feel special enough.

i have no plans for my bday because my initial plans were to celebrate together with Andy and friends.
however, we're not together anymore, so yea, seriously, please vote k!

On the 25th of July, after my work at 9PM, should i:
1. club at zouk / dbl O (o bar) and if i do, should i open bottle? but no one to drink sia..! its odd inviting different grps of ppl to club lo. haha

2. Beatnik picnic at SMU campus Green, by zouk 10.30pm - 2am

Friday night (25th july) will see sparks fly as the night starts off with a Pyrotechnics performance followed by a party with a bohemian feel, with craft and art related fringe activites. Later in the night, rock out with Van She form Sydney, who will be playing new sounds form their upcoming album. Local Zouk jock Hong will be spinning a special indie disco set.

3. Free admission to the following museums from 6pm till 2am;
- Asian Civilisations Museum
- Peranakan Museum
- Singapore Art Museum
- Singapore Philatelic Museum
- National Museum of Singapore



i just went to the Night Festival at the museum and it's AWESOME!
high quality pics are with Angela, my colleauge. =)

the Sky Dancing show was incredibly pretty! i wish i can see more of it but i reached there late :( :(

we spent our time exploring the museum, which consist alot about Singapore's history, food, spices and the likes. But we concentrated on taking photos more rather than the artifacts. haha! great trip!

birthday headaches

well, i don't know what to do for my birthday..
i mean, its just a normal day to me, i don't intend to take off too.

i mean, im rather tight on spending so the proposed idea of having a KTV celebration can be off though it'll be fun with my close friends.

hang-out friends:
mimi, tony, jas, ks, nic, gf, weihan, boy.

sec sch friends:
jas, celeste, fala, nur, mardiyah. shafie? lol :p

sh friends:
julia, shuan, darren and hopefully selena. :D

poly friends:
eve, janice, dom, jh, jack, zy, boy.

i dont know man.
i guess just a separate dinner date for all ba..

or should i go ahead with KTV????
arghh!!

wah lao, i hate my birthday. so headache

anyway mr BF asked me how do i want to spend my day too. i really have no idea, even if its with him..

HOW HOW HOW??

just a simple, relaxing and happy day is enough le.. haiz..

virus

not my com but me.. =(
after my meal yesterday we went home; yea so boring..
oh i drove for awhile first haha.

anyway back home i was napping and when i woke up, my throat was sore already..
then fever. there wasn't even flu or anything..

must be passed from him..


so yea im going to bathe and see doc................


sniffs sniffss


oh yea, i think i'll be trying out for the audition.

Requirements
Students should prepare 3 pieces demonstrating their skill on the instrument they wish to study. The pieces should be of contrasting styles and periods, and the audition program should be no longer than 20 minutes. A sample program might include works from the Baroque, Romantic and Twentieth Century repertoires. Students may also be asked to demonstrate some technical work. The audition panel will not hear all of the program and will make its own selection from the works prepared.

The Bachelor of Music entrance standard approximates to AMEB Grade 7, or Grade 5 for Voice.


Singapore
Date: Tuesday 5 August 2008
Time: 11.00am – 5.00pm
Location: Yamaha Music School,
301 Upper Thomson Road,
#03-24 Thomson Plaza.

Enquiries: The University of Melbourne
Singapore Office,
Evelyn Tan: evelynt@unimelb.edu.au
Phone +65 6410 1354


sian.. must start to practice up..

my only sunday when i can rest

well, my family and i will be out to have a good lunch at Ah Yat's.
cause we didn't have that for ages already.
actually, ever since i worked on sundays, i seldom lunch with them anymore..

im unhappy though..
im vexed over cash & spending rates.
im vexed over my over loaded wardrobe.



im unhappy being with him.
i find that he always brings me down and seriously, he just has something to say about me everytime.

till i find no joy no excitment in meeting him anymore..

dad says newspaper has audition for Melbourne Uni in august.
maybe it will be really good for me..

Chinese Eye Test

this is a chinese eye-test.

HINT: if u can't see anything, pull the sides of your eyes upwards LOL.
like those chinese slit eyes yea..!

HAHAHAHA SUCH A FUNNY TEST !!

QNA

ok replying to a taggy thing from julia.. its really bo-liao and redundant, but oh well, just some fun...


Rules:
People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
(Can like that one ar?)


Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cant refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person who they were tagged by.


#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

duh, damn hurt and angry, all kinds of emotions at the same time..
i.e swearing, crying at the same time.


#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?

uh hook up with a Mr. Vampire and dump Mr.BF ! hahaha!
well i would actually like to tour the whole world right down to its lil' cities.
but that would mean alot of money.
and that is equalvalent to having a job that pays many many 00000s
and that is a....... DREAM..
haha lame.


#3. What will your dream wedding be like?

i would like to well.. get married in another country, while touring there.. it must not be a rash action or decision but isn't it more exciting to be in a new place and just the 2 of you? i mean, i dont really like having to put up a dinner show for those who are happy and those who can't be bothered..

and when we get back to SG, its like just a posh dinner with close ones. and those who CARES. =D

and what's a wedding without TONS of photos of your youth together?
i would LURRRVE one that has many many kinds of wardrobe changes!

he asked me what is my dream wedding dress... well, haha that's for my future hubby to know then! =D


#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

kinda now.. i feel like im the kind that will just throw everything and just run off to my next goal in life..

im like the kind who wants to learn everything and try everything..

gosh. i need directions.


#5. What's your ideal lover like?

ideal? no ideal lover just, man enough, loves me as who i am, taller than me would be sufficient.

best if its a vampire yea.. *dreamsssss*


#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

i would prefer to be with someone i love..
but this kind of thing should be MUTUAL.

to phrase it simply, i can be with 10 people that loves me, but how many can i love? =)


#7. What do you see yourself as?

a fat-ass that's complex.


#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

crush on another guy lo.. attached what, what can i do? i won't look at attached guys man..
give myself problems only.


#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?

yes im always unhappy.. haha


#10. If you had a choice, what kind of family you want to be born into?

a rich family that lives somewhere in town?
flies around but close to one another too?
every member owning a lux car?
one that allows dogs to be kept?


#11. Is being tagged fun?

sometimes when u're TOO BO LIAO only..


#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?

dont think about such things


#13. Who are currently the most important people to you?

family, Mr.BF and close girl friends


#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

Julia is a very straight forward girl, that i like and i appreciate deeply. She's real humourous and caring for friends. And i think she is doing a good job at inspiring her fellow church mates.

Definately a close girl friend im happy to know.


#15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?

single and rich.
i will NEVER MARRY when im poor.
that's dumb, like seeking trouble lo.


#16. What's the first thing you do every morning?

sleep some more.


#17. Would you give all in a relationship?

yes.
all that i can give.


#18. Do you live to love, live to hate or live for the sake of living?
live for the sake of living..

sometimes i wonder why are we creating a life out of for??


#19. What type of friends do you like?

err talk cock ones, humourous, can talk about anything, not some actsy borat kind of people, true people, not fake etc.


#20. What type of friends do you dislike?

i hate those new people whom u meet in life, and they SEEM like they know u so well, they call u up for chats and stuff, its like super HUH? DO I KNOW U EVEN?
that's all i can think of now..

and yes im sure u can see im kinda fed up with this already.

ITS YOUR TURN NOW!!

mindy
celeste
nur
fala
jas you can send me a mail HAHAHA
that's all :(

don't ignore AR!!


happy weekdays everyone i hope..