seeing you again..

he was supposed to pass something to me..
seeing him today made me crazy..

it really upset me..
i cried on my way home in the bus.. while msging jas, mindy..

dear, i miss you =(

i miss meeting you.
i miss talking to you..
i miss telling you everything..
i miss spending weekends with you
i miss seeing fireworks with you though u don't like it..
i miss holding your hand.
i miss your hugs, your kisses..
i miss your smell.
i miss everything of you..

i hate being strong..
i hate forcing myself to be happy again..
i hate wearing masks all day long.
i hate myself, blocking away my unhappiness when im actually hurting.
i hate the fact that after each time im sad, i have to force myself to be okay again.
i hate knowing that im alone..

i know i have friends, good close ones for me to lean on, to support me for LIFE, forever, and love me the way i am..

but somehow, this gap, the emptyness can never replaced by good friends.
he took a whole load of happiness out of me..
he took alot of frustrations and unhappiness too..

how can i ever have another one that i trust so deeply, that i share so throughly, that i love whole-heartedly ever again?

u're my soul-mate.. the one who knows all about me. literally everything..
i value and i treasure this.



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i went crazy and i bought 2 killer high heels from Nine West. At sale price of course. Damage was well $90 for the black one; $82.5 for the beige one.




my humble collection..



the more ex ones....



normal wears.