lets walk back into the past..

hi im ok..

anyway i just came across these photos.. some are entertaining, some are funny.. all filled with lovely memories of my recent years..


lets start with the pics that i edited with PAINT last time in secondary 4..!



this is the guy that LOVES me alot.. =D




LOL!

see we even got married!



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the very very first one that i edited..



josh hartnett awww

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i even became part of Harry Potter!





and eminem accompanied me to the premiere of Harry Potter movie =D




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i joined tkd in poly.. its definately a good experience.. i had much fun, tortures, blue blacks, tired and sad moments..

joreen dear and me..
we just took our grading.. and my very last one too.. =( sadly.. im a blue tip..



we joined IVP 2004 i think.. and it was the BEST time though i was going through my 2nd break up in a relationship.. i had alot of fun with my tkd friends..

meet JAY CHOU! lol.. aww..



sir peter loves us..






dear marcus so MAN...



and mr aliff.. =)




i miss training..


wah lao last time quite thin lo..!



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last time im damn nerdy.... maybe now still.. haha.. but err now know how to dress up more ba.. last time very disgusting.. pukes*

jas and me.. lol can't stand us..



im really shocked he would like me then.. im so fucking ugly lo..

REALLY KENA SAI ONE..



sometimes i really wonder.. how come he will like me.. he said he like my character...
to compare his love then and now, last time was so much more.. more genuine.. and much more true.. it CANT be compared to now..


with PCK's ah goon



eileen wee~




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after always going out with him, i just wear A TINY BIT NICER Only..

(note: don't worry this post wont turn into one for him.. and not an emotional one.. im going for comical actually..)


he was SO thin last time.. when he still liked jane.... year 1:



one of the pics that i like him best.. so cheeky.. so real and i snapped it real fast..

year 2: when he fetched me to sch daily.. AS FRIENDS..




on an innocent afternoon in E-learning lab...



Dom: wah BIG sia!
Andy: no need look until like that la...

lol ok i made that up..



with dear janice



eve, andy, me



yan & me... =)



jas..




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when i got my piano diploma in 2005










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things i did for him..
i drew him a birthday banner.. his favourite car..
and his own car.. i gave him a "car plate" printed with his name.. haha.. insane lo......









21 presents? that was what i tried to do.. i still owe him 3 i think.. lol



wall paper i did for him..

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sorry can't resist putting up these few funny ones..

lol..

this is wei han and benji and they look like they're doing some "illegal" exchange..


and that was benji DURING NS..


this is wei han and benji and they look like they just fucked coz benji is happy and wei han looks raped..



and that was benji STILL DURING NS..




HAHAHAHHAHA

sorry no mood to blog liao.. bye..

just this night...

just this night, let me cry out all my tears..
let me use up all my tissues..
let me cry till my eyes sting and swell..
till i crunch my fingers up till my nails prick my flesh..
till i feel the pain so strong within me..

just this night, let me be weak...
i've been strong for 1 week.. only..
just this night, i want to be weak..

his words are all so hurting..
whether they are true or not true, they hurt.. it really pierced me hard..
for the whole week, i've been controlling my tears..
so many times when i go to the toilet, tears well up but they don't drop..
so many times when im on my way to work, my eyes go blurry but soon they clear up..
so many times i meet up my friends, i pretend like nothing's wrong...
so many times i act like im strong and i can take it..
so many times the words flashed through my mind while im teaching.. but i can't cry..
so many times in my studio, alone or teaching, i fought the urge to cry..
so many times i wished to contact him but i have no words to say..

just this night, let me be weak... i can't stop crying..

my drawings..

that day, i came across a file that brought back alot of memories for me..
back to my sec school life..
filled with my drawings of things that i loved..

its during the studying phase that i had the passion for arts most..
i never drawn something for such a long time already =((


its not really a talent.. but i do have some works that im proud of.. and i dont trace k.. i draw on A4 paper, there's no illustrations so big for me to trace from..

i missed letting out my emotions on paper... the concentration and the passion was there.. i could work on something the whole night.. erase and erase away...



something i drew for him for our 1st yr anniversary..



drafted on 1 of the starhub application forms.. lol that time was working there.. i think julia and celeste remember seeing this picture..












was in love with Harry Potter and still is.. the school crest was something that i wanted to knock on metal even.. that was after sec 4, where sam and i went back to sch, to do our tie & dye with mr mohd.. and we were planning to do this metal plaque too.. :( i didn't manage to do it..











its tediousssss....















awww my love for this baadddddd boy ....





draft of my beloved DRACO lol~















aiyo.... got fungus.. lol :(










UN FINISHED EDISON CHEN! lol~ i know dont look like him..










i like drawing girls crying.. i dont know why.. and its when im sad.. haha..












comics~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

































for xiong qiang -.- to draw on his bag..




paper nice only.. i did the calligraphy.. and there's a mistake :(
















my baby G
wah lao ugly lo.. !




water bottle.. looks so fake..




bananananana





lady's finger





ginger..



























one of my best pics i like..




its tedious.. and if u look carefully...............





its actually made of all lines and lines and lines only..

death of my phone

have been wanting to blog for ages.. but just don't know what to say out here..

anyway i was quite upset last week. my phone, served me for 2 years gave way.. (after i dropped so many countless times..)

SIGH!!

sad all my contacts, pictures, messages :( all in there.. luckily i type all my messages from him out so i still have it in my pc.

DID YOU KNOW THAT I KEEP HIS MESSAGES WORTH KEEPING, AND TYPE THEM OUT IN MICROSOFT WORDS BEFORE I DELETE THEM?

haha insane?

Motorola V3i can't store much messages.. only about 80 so everytime i can't keep in the phone itself, i gotta type them out lo...

anyway, bought the Red W910i the Sony Ericsson shake shake phone..



haven't really know how to use yet, and yea all my contacts in my pc.. gotta slowly type in back to my phone :(
but ok la, i like this new phone.. but just miss the old one yea..

im sentimental =((

and i haven't been shopping...!!!
awww deprived..! i don't know, but just lost the mood for it hehe.. good too yea.. its been weeks leh!!

everyday i have not enough sleep.. i don't know why but im just so packed with things and activities.. sigh..

i long for a long long rest...

=(

on a lighter note,
this is funny..



MCP Supermart? what kind of a supermart is that man? for MCP males only? hehe..

and..............................................

the last picture taken by my beloved V3i:



(2006-2008)