Tarot Cards

Tarot Card Reading
that was sent to me from astrology.com
free, for my birthday



(Upright) This year you may prove a true and faithful friend, or demonstrate the capacity to love unconditionally. You may become one of the lucky one's who are fortunate to find their true soul mate, provided you don't give into temptation for instant gratification or settle for less than what you deserve. Develop compassion, and learn to put the needs or happiness of someone you care for ahead of your own. A desire for long term connection, love, and fulfillment will enable you to recognize or cultivate your hearts desire, while appreciating consequence, the art of compromise, and the importance of trust. This year may be all about learning to use good judgment.


(Reversed) This year could bring hurt, abuse, or being used or let down by love, and this could affect your judgment, identity, sexuality, commitment, or self-esteem. Stubborn pride, embarrassment, or control issues could keep you from seeking support or coming to an understanding, while lust, insecurity, or indifference could cause you to be indiscriminant in choosing your companions. A misguided belief that you can change someone into your soul mate could show a glaring disparity between what you think you desire, what you deserve, and how you may be settling. Something will be missing this year, but until you are true and faithful to yourself, no one else can be. Work on issues of self-trust, compromise, or commitment, and learn from past mistakes.



somehow, i feel that i could relate to it. This year can bring hurt, abuse? haha, i think of andy.
lol! oh gosh!

sigh


anyway, here's the rest about my life, which describes my character and i think its really true.. =)





(Upright) You are a person of strong conviction, persuasion, determination, and great courage, and you may thrive on, or be confronted with an inordinate amount of challenges or tests of character. You've been there and done that, and you understand that setbacks, suffering, or loss can either make you or break you, and you aren't going to let anything hold you down or cause you to give up. Having more responsibility, dignity, willpower, or obligations than many, you are an example of inspiration or perseverance, and you may have little tolerance for those who don't take responsibility for their lives, blame bad luck, make excuses, or have a victim mentality. Remember that compassion, especially when you think you're the only one going through difficulties, will be the greatest show of strength.


(Reversed) Jealousy, bad luck, shame, blame, insecurity, or a victim mentality could reflect an inability to accept responsibility for your own choices or decisions. When things don't go your way, you may resort to threats, violence, retaliation, revenge, or strong-armed tactics of manipulation in order to get your point across or get even. Being too controlling, getting in other people's faces, talking over others, or going "off" on them, only pushes them away or demonstrates a lack of self-control or willpower. Playing to the crowd not only turns the situation into a circus, but can cause others to question your self-respect. It only takes one act of true courage to inspire transformation of character.




Basically im just enjoying my life at the moment. Im out with whoever i want.
Darren says clubbing in 2 weeks time. we shall see.. haha.
Im not looking for anything, im not desperate for anyone.
I have a great bunch of friends all around me; mindy, jas, celeste, julia, sheau yun in melbourne, angela, eve, janice, liza, rachel etc etc etc

Today will be my 4th Day of Celebration! lol
with my beloved secondary sch friends!

Thurs 24th: Shokudu, Room108 with Starhub mates
Fri 25th (actual): Obar, with 8 friends; min,jas,ahlau,tony,dom,eve,jan,jan's bf
Sat 26th: Dinner at Crystal Jade Ginseng Chicken with Benji, Museum with Angela
Sun 27th: Dinner at Magic Wok Novena with lala,jas,cel,nur,mardiyah, to be continued
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=))
i love everyone MUACKS!

when i realized that u're not there to spend my birthday with me anymore...

15 Jun 2008 03:27
I always do . . Girl gimme time to change k i promise before ur birthday u will find happiness k night night



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i missed you.
my heart ached when i deleted some of your msgs away..
whenever i pass by your house, i can't help wishing i could see you again.
wishing you would hug me again.

u're a wonderful guy. there are many things you would not do for your gf. but still, it touched me sincerely to know that u loved me sincerely, as who i am, and accepted me as how i am..

i will never ever forget when u fell for me, it was because of me.. and not because of my appearance.. i'm very thankful for that.

i wish i can accept the way you love me. but i can't..
i do love you the way you are, no matter what difficulties you have,
no matter how many times u sleep past our weekends, no matter how u always converse with other girls, yet saying that u're true to me.

i do appreciate the times u sent me back, the nights u stayed up to talk to me, and the many times u gave in to me countlessly in our fights..

i wish i can just accept the fact that u leave me alone during weekdays and just meet me only on the weekends.
i wish i can just bear with the loneliness during weekdays and just be happy with the short hours u meet me on the weekends.
i wish i can put aside my unhappiness and just be thankful that the only time u converse with me is during the weekends..

but i can't.

because i feel that u're a total stranger already, after months and months of ignoring me..

you say that im crazy to demand you to talk to me..
i feel that communication is the basic thing.

what hurts the most is, even when u were on off the whole week, you didn't even called once..

not once.

u always said it's due to army, oily hands, busy with activites, tired with sleep..
didn't u realized that to keep a person, you would need constant communication?


how does a relationship work when u're with the person yet you don't contact the person?


you always say that im asking for too much.
am i?



u've never ever understood my point.
if only you did...

night at the musuem

was hella fun!

i wish there were more things to play! haha.. it's an unforgettable experience.
let me bring u on my trip, though i will bore u with pics of MYSELF. 'cause my friend only send me MY pics.. -.- haha!







we arrived near 12 and the show started already! Program is called "The Dancing Sky", with acrobat ladies in flowy dresses dancing in mid-air hanging from HUMONGOUS floating spheres that looks like hot air balloon. The spheres appear 1 in a victorian styled picture of a sun, the other, of a surreal moon.

it was LOVELY.





pics from my lousy phone =((


anyway we went to the museum and before we entered, we took pics against the beautiful building =)









and ta-dah!!

the moment we entered it shows,



wow! im not being narrow minded or un-arty, but well, i know its a famous structure but yea.. haha..

hmm





we went in somemore..







there were several high quality photographs taken and displayed. really good works. admire their masterpieces..



then i saw a door and we posed.. haha


we saw everyone climbing up this stairway and we followed suit, and we came to the roof!!



we went down again, saw this beautiful door, but it leads to a carpark -.-

haha, too artsy-farty?

anyway, my favourite pic =D




it was mainly on Singapore's history, so they featured spices and herbs, food, etc.




on the 2nd level, view of da naked man




angela arranged the boxes, to take pictures..
haha!






a spiral staircase that, leads to no where!




finally, it was 1.30am, and we left.






it was real fun and i would love to go again! =)

People interested, the National Museuem will be opened till 2am this coming 25th July (FRI) and 26th July (SAT). You can check it out! =)

LUST list

I DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT!!!!! serious k. 'cause da lady here is very realistic. i can't come up with what i want even.

shit*
good for u all la!


haha, anyway...........

1. bags. i want pretty stylish bags, i need big HARDY bags. bags that can last can withstand my rough use. but please, im not looking at crumpler. hahaha!

2. wallet. i don't mind a branded wallet; what brand what kind etc, i have no idea! haa i don't like Guess though.

3. Ferragamo parfums =)) they smell really lovely. i have a sample of shine. though i like charm, but i think its a tad too sweet.

*****

actually, i like surprises or seriously, just catching up with friends is good enough for me already.. its the thought of meeting up to gather for your birthday that makes it feel special enough.

i have no plans for my bday because my initial plans were to celebrate together with Andy and friends.
however, we're not together anymore, so yea, seriously, please vote k!

On the 25th of July, after my work at 9PM, should i:
1. club at zouk / dbl O (o bar) and if i do, should i open bottle? but no one to drink sia..! its odd inviting different grps of ppl to club lo. haha

2. Beatnik picnic at SMU campus Green, by zouk 10.30pm - 2am

Friday night (25th july) will see sparks fly as the night starts off with a Pyrotechnics performance followed by a party with a bohemian feel, with craft and art related fringe activites. Later in the night, rock out with Van She form Sydney, who will be playing new sounds form their upcoming album. Local Zouk jock Hong will be spinning a special indie disco set.

3. Free admission to the following museums from 6pm till 2am;
- Asian Civilisations Museum
- Peranakan Museum
- Singapore Art Museum
- Singapore Philatelic Museum
- National Museum of Singapore



i just went to the Night Festival at the museum and it's AWESOME!
high quality pics are with Angela, my colleauge. =)

the Sky Dancing show was incredibly pretty! i wish i can see more of it but i reached there late :( :(

we spent our time exploring the museum, which consist alot about Singapore's history, food, spices and the likes. But we concentrated on taking photos more rather than the artifacts. haha! great trip!

birthday headaches

well, i don't know what to do for my birthday..
i mean, its just a normal day to me, i don't intend to take off too.

i mean, im rather tight on spending so the proposed idea of having a KTV celebration can be off though it'll be fun with my close friends.

hang-out friends:
mimi, tony, jas, ks, nic, gf, weihan, boy.

sec sch friends:
jas, celeste, fala, nur, mardiyah. shafie? lol :p

sh friends:
julia, shuan, darren and hopefully selena. :D

poly friends:
eve, janice, dom, jh, jack, zy, boy.

i dont know man.
i guess just a separate dinner date for all ba..

or should i go ahead with KTV????
arghh!!

wah lao, i hate my birthday. so headache

anyway mr BF asked me how do i want to spend my day too. i really have no idea, even if its with him..

HOW HOW HOW??

just a simple, relaxing and happy day is enough le.. haiz..

virus

not my com but me.. =(
after my meal yesterday we went home; yea so boring..
oh i drove for awhile first haha.

anyway back home i was napping and when i woke up, my throat was sore already..
then fever. there wasn't even flu or anything..

must be passed from him..


so yea im going to bathe and see doc................


sniffs sniffss


oh yea, i think i'll be trying out for the audition.

Requirements
Students should prepare 3 pieces demonstrating their skill on the instrument they wish to study. The pieces should be of contrasting styles and periods, and the audition program should be no longer than 20 minutes. A sample program might include works from the Baroque, Romantic and Twentieth Century repertoires. Students may also be asked to demonstrate some technical work. The audition panel will not hear all of the program and will make its own selection from the works prepared.

The Bachelor of Music entrance standard approximates to AMEB Grade 7, or Grade 5 for Voice.


Singapore
Date: Tuesday 5 August 2008
Time: 11.00am – 5.00pm
Location: Yamaha Music School,
301 Upper Thomson Road,
#03-24 Thomson Plaza.

Enquiries: The University of Melbourne
Singapore Office,
Evelyn Tan: evelynt@unimelb.edu.au
Phone +65 6410 1354


sian.. must start to practice up..

my only sunday when i can rest

well, my family and i will be out to have a good lunch at Ah Yat's.
cause we didn't have that for ages already.
actually, ever since i worked on sundays, i seldom lunch with them anymore..

im unhappy though..
im vexed over cash & spending rates.
im vexed over my over loaded wardrobe.



im unhappy being with him.
i find that he always brings me down and seriously, he just has something to say about me everytime.

till i find no joy no excitment in meeting him anymore..

dad says newspaper has audition for Melbourne Uni in august.
maybe it will be really good for me..

Chinese Eye Test

this is a chinese eye-test.

HINT: if u can't see anything, pull the sides of your eyes upwards LOL.
like those chinese slit eyes yea..!

HAHAHAHA SUCH A FUNNY TEST !!

QNA

ok replying to a taggy thing from julia.. its really bo-liao and redundant, but oh well, just some fun...


Rules:
People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
(Can like that one ar?)


Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cant refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person who they were tagged by.


#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

duh, damn hurt and angry, all kinds of emotions at the same time..
i.e swearing, crying at the same time.


#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?

uh hook up with a Mr. Vampire and dump Mr.BF ! hahaha!
well i would actually like to tour the whole world right down to its lil' cities.
but that would mean alot of money.
and that is equalvalent to having a job that pays many many 00000s
and that is a....... DREAM..
haha lame.


#3. What will your dream wedding be like?

i would like to well.. get married in another country, while touring there.. it must not be a rash action or decision but isn't it more exciting to be in a new place and just the 2 of you? i mean, i dont really like having to put up a dinner show for those who are happy and those who can't be bothered..

and when we get back to SG, its like just a posh dinner with close ones. and those who CARES. =D

and what's a wedding without TONS of photos of your youth together?
i would LURRRVE one that has many many kinds of wardrobe changes!

he asked me what is my dream wedding dress... well, haha that's for my future hubby to know then! =D


#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

kinda now.. i feel like im the kind that will just throw everything and just run off to my next goal in life..

im like the kind who wants to learn everything and try everything..

gosh. i need directions.


#5. What's your ideal lover like?

ideal? no ideal lover just, man enough, loves me as who i am, taller than me would be sufficient.

best if its a vampire yea.. *dreamsssss*


#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

i would prefer to be with someone i love..
but this kind of thing should be MUTUAL.

to phrase it simply, i can be with 10 people that loves me, but how many can i love? =)


#7. What do you see yourself as?

a fat-ass that's complex.


#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

crush on another guy lo.. attached what, what can i do? i won't look at attached guys man..
give myself problems only.


#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?

yes im always unhappy.. haha


#10. If you had a choice, what kind of family you want to be born into?

a rich family that lives somewhere in town?
flies around but close to one another too?
every member owning a lux car?
one that allows dogs to be kept?


#11. Is being tagged fun?

sometimes when u're TOO BO LIAO only..


#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?

dont think about such things


#13. Who are currently the most important people to you?

family, Mr.BF and close girl friends


#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

Julia is a very straight forward girl, that i like and i appreciate deeply. She's real humourous and caring for friends. And i think she is doing a good job at inspiring her fellow church mates.

Definately a close girl friend im happy to know.


#15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?

single and rich.
i will NEVER MARRY when im poor.
that's dumb, like seeking trouble lo.


#16. What's the first thing you do every morning?

sleep some more.


#17. Would you give all in a relationship?

yes.
all that i can give.


#18. Do you live to love, live to hate or live for the sake of living?
live for the sake of living..

sometimes i wonder why are we creating a life out of for??


#19. What type of friends do you like?

err talk cock ones, humourous, can talk about anything, not some actsy borat kind of people, true people, not fake etc.


#20. What type of friends do you dislike?

i hate those new people whom u meet in life, and they SEEM like they know u so well, they call u up for chats and stuff, its like super HUH? DO I KNOW U EVEN?
that's all i can think of now..

and yes im sure u can see im kinda fed up with this already.

ITS YOUR TURN NOW!!

mindy
celeste
nur
fala
jas you can send me a mail HAHAHA
that's all :(

don't ignore AR!!


happy weekdays everyone i hope..

im broke

like what's new..
i spent like $460+ on shopping alone..
and i HAVEN'T calculate how much more with the daily cab fares... goodness.

*SHAKES MYSELF UP*

alright im not meeting anyone for some time..
i need to go home to have dinner so that i'll save some money on food :D

brilliant! (like i can do that)

and i've just terminated my California Fitness membership, which i had been paying for NOTHING for ONE year and ONE month.. gosh.. (slaps)

and they gave me free usage up to july for now =D

HOWEVER, i still have my monthly dues to Yoga.. gosh.

yes julia, i need to speak to my boss.. lol



anyway im really occupied with books.. one that i just returned LATE to the library, another loaned to me by my piano teacher;
Remember Me? by SOphie Kinsella.
It's nice, and fascinating. Was reading it faithfully TILL i found this book at the music school;
Dead Until Dark by Charlaine Harris

alright, the title sucks, and i haven't heard about the author, but i like the story! i mean, what's there not to like about Vampires, HOT vampires (drools) that leviates, have the manners of an English gentlemen, sucks blood from bad people only and and, much more.

Well it's actually a mystery book about some badass who got murdered, kind of typical story but well, there are nice things about this one. Now im hooked on this one!

i wish i have a vampire lover too...! =(


anyway julia tagged me with some qna, will reply to that soon alright ;)

some interesting pics hee.


GUESS WHAT'S THIS?!?!


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say hello to Mr Sticky Shark! haha





and what's this??
is this a girl?? her head looks weirds though..

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have you thought what can that be?


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can't imagine it's actually an OWL right?!?!
thanks to Mr. BF and his lame joke.. hehhehehe..
left me LOL though.




now spot the differences..

or rather, the similaries..




the dress that i ALMOST bought.. from topshop but didn't because i controlled myself..



should i buy it ??????? :(



haha hope my pics were interesting enough.
happy weekends everyone..

though im not happy..
oh im happy just thinking about my vampire.......... =))))

Jason Mrax_I'm Yours

this is such a nice song to hear to especially when you;

dip your toes in some clear-blue sea;
sun-bath on some white benches;
sip your ice-chilled coke;
strolling along the beach or nature in a breezy dress;
stroll hand in hand with him =);
think of all the good & bad things that happened to you and are just grateful to all that ever happened;

sit side by side with him in the car, watching as trees pass by, listening to his CD.. =)

Song lyrics | I'm Yours lyrics

weekends

my weekends was rather good, rather bad..

bad because of him..

good because of him..

well, we always have issues on meeting time, going where, do what etc etc.
the list doesn't end.

and fact is he's always so tired and lazy.. so many times he just sleep through out appt time.. yes, its THAT BAd.

tell me, how can i NOT be angry right?

anyway, he made it up to me, on Saturday usually im working full day but last Sat was a 'sch holiday' and as i worked extra hours, im entitled to leave early like 2+pm :D

so anyway he brought me for lunch..
i made him bring me go Tampines's IKEA

we spent the evening there..
buying boxes for my room.. haha..

he was clearly bored, but still patient. for that, i appreciated.. and i was pleasantly surprised to see him into several house funiture.. it made me think, is he really thinking of the future with me? he did tell me things, but yea, well the future is still long la..

it was a wonderful weekend even though we quarrelled..

Ironman at Pasir Ris's cathay after that.. please, that mall is so LAME.. its so small. wah lao, its just so LAME! maybe good for a weekday movie or weekend want to slack then go there.. otherwise, the whole mall is really small, there's nothing much only those kiddy place for kids to play those adventure thingy. plus arcade, pool. an indoor ferris wheel which is like so lame! only cheap thrill for young young kids..

anyway the movie was great, or so i find.. Tony Stark's dilogue is really witty and humourous.

oh, and i watched Superhero movie too hahaha so lame that show!

ok im so tired now.. good night people :)

lovessss

my addiction

shopping is an evil thing.
u walk around, u see things, u try, u like, u buy.
u hungry, u eat, u grow fat, u put on weight.
money is drawn out, u feel satisfied with your buys, yet down because u burnt a hole in your pocket. and yes, space constrains.

sigh..

well, i don't shop alot, i just buy things that i think is good buys and is a good fit for me.. :D

nevertheless, evil days when im in town, wisma atria, i came across this dress that i thought will be breezy for our sunny (TOO SUNNY) weather. i think its about $25.90 from the max and more shop.



the next time when i went bugis i almost died 'cause there's exactly EXACTLY the same dress selling at? $10 lor

WTH right! with the same labels on the dress too.. sigh..

so i bought a white one.. haha
grrrr!!



then there was this blue dress so carefree the feel, and though it cost bout $40+ from Far East, i still bought it..



( i just went bugis today and i saw the exact same one selling at $30+) WTH!??!?!?!!

Fox shop has pretty cool summer things..

but i dont know how to wear this lo.. so transparent..


i shop online too.. some sale item hee..




can u believe this? its really a guy's shirt lo.. lol! its supposed to be BF's shirt but its really a guy's shirt la..! waste money! i could have just taken something from my Bro's wardrobe..

LOL



Topshop sale i think

$29 only


Zara KIDS hahahha!! good buy ok!

$29.90


Dorothy Perkins

i think $23 only.. quite cheap.. was lusting for another top BUT so ex $56 so i didn't buy that.. :(


now now now bugis buys.. they have good buys la, but must dig for gold lo..
and im like super happy shopping in bugis instead of town now.. coz i found a few shops bringing in the brand that i like. its supplier is the same as the far east shop that i always go too lo. So their clothes are same and at a much cheaper price.. (still quite pricey though)

i wanted to buy this dress from Far east at $40 plus again.. but at bugis its selling at $36!




this is extra one.. $19 haha so cheap




cute umbrella kinda top..



and this shapeless ugly black dress cost $69 lo!! but ok la, in the Far east shop its like $80+? i think.. damn ex la..



its actually very nice when worn.. hahaha.. next time show u..


and then, 1 night after work while eating Old Chang Kee and walking around innocently, i came across Cotton On at Novena... o.O

uh ohhhhhhh and its having sales..! hahaha



$10



$10 also



$15

but its like cheap deals!!

haha so many good buys, i went home happy..



and so, today.. mindy wants me to post what i buy haha. Haven wash too..

ok sale, 1 for $20


2 for $30
so might as well get 2 right?? heee... im just comforting myself, because actually i dont need this brown dress.. but aiya, MIGHT AS WELL.. sigh


and its on a rack of sale things, so these are the only 2 that is good.. sigh sigh sigh..


lastly, haha from the same fave brand i like, $29.9



i can never find this price in far east lo.. bugis is proven so much cheaper..
but of course far east has its perks too cause they bring alot more in whereas bugis u must dig to find it..

oh well, its been rewarding..